What we had is now more than over
I’m like a drunk who’s only wishing he were sober
Should’ve never treated you so badly
But when we were together I loved you deeply, truly, madly
Looked up today and saw you with another man
It’s as if you never cared about what we had
I just wanted to hold you and never let you go
If only there were some way that I could let you know
So some years passed and I had some time alone
Trying to replace you drove me way out of my comfort zone
Even if I never get to be with you again, I won’t stop trying
Because when love’s for real, you don’t stop fighting
Can’t stop thinking or comparing you to other girls
You’re the only one that I want in my world
So I’ll keep pressing on and holding on and hope to let you back inside
I’ll be feverishly waiting for your reply
This isn’t how it was intended to be
I walked away blindly and wasn’t able to see
That you were the one who completed me
And let me see things that I only dreamed
I know that I hurt you and I can’t take it back
But you also hurt me and veered us off track
It isn’t that I didn’t want to fight for our love
It’s just that you didn’t care about us enough
A second chance was something I never thought
Could ever happen between us, but love’s all we got
So please help me be the man I once was
Older and stronger, but ready to love
You were the very best thing that could’ve happened to me
Now I sit and I cry and naturally
I see that you’re gone, so gone
Every time we’re together, I’m not myself
‘Cause when you look at me, I wanna be somewhere else…
There’s really just no other way of saying it
I’ve had just about enough of you delaying it
I’ve been doing it this way for you, baby, for far too long
So I went ahead and put it for you in a song
Gettin’ by, making me believe I’m not okay
I just pray I get the courage to leave this mess behind today
The fake smiles and pleasantries can only last so long
That’s why I went ahead and put it for you in a song
They say true love is supposed to last forever
How’d you trick me into believing that we’d be together?
All of the lying and the crying and the cheating here cannot keep going on
So I went ahead and put it for you in a song
You’re pathetic and a loser and a liar and a jerk
Didn’t wanna put the effort in to try and make it work
Too bad, so sad, so now it’s time to say “so long”
and so I went ahead and put it for you in a song
Next time you have a good love and you want to make it last
You’ll think back and reminisce about the love that we once had
I never thought that I could ever, ever, ever be so wrong
So I went ahead and put it for you in a song
NAKED! That seemed to be the recurring theme of the cleverly titled episode “The Dress Rehearsal.” The show opened with Tom completely naked on stage with the cast of Bombshell watching HIM! An odd way to start the show, but nevertheless, an attention-getter. Why would Tom EVER be naked on stage? Alas, it was all a dream! So was that brief appearance by a naked Ellis…if you blinked, you missed it. Speaking of nudity, Derek and Ivy pick up where they left off after going home together on Ivy’s birthday. They keep their relationship casual even though she hints she still wants him to spend the night. As a viewer, I find myself wondering why these two continue their relationship. Derek seems to be fascinated with women he feels “inspired” by. But now, Ivy and Derek are not working with each other anymore and it really doesn’t make sense to continue using each other when Ivy clearly wants something more.
Karen, meanwhile, continues her romance with Jimmy, waking up to find him writing more songs for Derek on the piano. What? He’s been up all night? I’m sure coffee wasn’t the only thing he was using, er, having. Later in the show, Derek tells Karen that Jimmy is not who she thinks he is. After she confronts Jimmy about his past, he refuses to be honest with her and she walks off. At the end of the episode, Jimmy’s old drug-dealing “friend” shows up at Manhattan Theatre Workshop and asks Ana where Jimmy is. On to Hit List…
Derek is giving Hit List a complete makeover at MTW, increasing the stage time of the Diva (Ana) and reducing Karen’s role (“It’s my character’s anthem. Don’t give Ana my song!”). These changes cause tension between Ana and Karen. Karen tells Ana that Derek only expanded her part because he was angry at Karen for being involved with Jimmy. Ana thinks that Karen can’t handle the fact that Derek thinks she’s talented enough to be featured more often in the show. Jimmy was very upset at the fact that Derek was tinkering with his play so much, but at the end of the day, even Jimmy’s writing partner, Kyle, had to agree with Derek’s changes. Kyle and Jeremy have a little tiff, but eventually reconcile. In another scene, Kyle shows up at the Lily Hayes Theatre where Bombshell is being prepped where he runs into Tom and offers him platitudes about the previews in Boston (clearly he wasn’t aware that Tom wasn’t directing that version). AWKWARD.
On the first night of shows, technical issues start worrying Tom as Ivy’s intro for “Let Me Be Your Star” is a bit delayed. There’s also an issue with the intermission being too long so Julia gets involved and comes up with a unique way of having the actors come back from intermission as members of the audience then crawl over the seats of the patrons leading into Ivy’s performance of “Dig Deep.”
Also in the show, viewers get a chance to see the love scene where Ivy bares all after JFK unzips her dress. Everyone is in shock…including Ivy. Why is SHE in shock? Didn’t she know she wasn’t wearing anything underneath that dress? And didn’t she know that he was going to do that? Admitting that the nudity adds a whole new layer of vulnerability to the character of Marilyn, and after receiving positive reviews in the press, Eileen and Tom beg Ivy to appear nude in every performance. When the show opens for previews, everyone holds their breath. Ivy wore lingerie at the pivotal scene, but in the next scene she bared all again. Perhaps now we understand the nudity in Tom’s dream before…it’s all about vulnerability. Maybe the episode should’ve been called “The Un-Dress Rehearsal.”
Following the first night of previews, Eileen, Julia and Tom decide to celebrate (Julia: “To Ivy, girl’s got balls”). Tom, however, can’t help himself. He immediately goes online to read the reviews. The first hit is a New York Times piece from none other than Richard Francis comparing Bombshell and Hit List. He calls Hit List the theatre event of the season. He calls Bombshell the past, thus pretty much ending his relationship with Eileen. Francis also outs Julia as the Hit List dramaturg. Tom tells Julia not to come home. Buuuurrrrrrnnn!!
Don’t know how it happened
or why I started falling for you
You smiled at me and I thought you meant something
Now I sit here all in tears
Asked you out and you didn’t say anything
brushed me off with a laugh
okay guess I’m the one who got played again
I often try to guard my heart
because when it breaks I fall apart
there’s no way out of this one
I should’ve known better
Every time I make these illusions
I end up alone and with so much confusion
Just wanted to spend some time with you
instead I’m all alone feeling blue
Thought you wanted it too
Maybe next time I’ll learn
sometimes bridges must be burned
don’t know why I let myself fall
and you never even called
Must rely only on my friends
To get through this difficult time
All I wanted was for you to be mine
All I wanna do is dream
When all life does is make you wanna scream
When things start to get you down
Shut your eyes and shut them out
Being in a state of shame
Knowing you’ve got no one else to blame
For all your choices in this life
Don’t sit around and question why
No matter what may come your way
There’ll always be another day
Something they cannot take away
Is the promise of a new day
Took away my happiness
Left me with nothing but emptiness
You did this to me
You never even cared About the lives you ruined there
All my hard work shattered in the blink of an eye
Had to turn around and say good-bye
Hope you can live with your choice
Because you took away my voice
Wish things could have gone another way
Guess I’ll never know
Wait for another day
There may be hope yet to salvage my once promising career.
Hello, everyone. Haven’t been on this page in a while. What can I say? My new role at the Mouse has kept me busy and then my computer broke, which is a whole new challenge on its own.
Nevertheless, I recently had the opportunity to meet with some nice folks for a potential new role. No further developments yet and should I receive the role, I shall make a formal announcement.
Well, since I’ve been gone, we lost Desperate Housewives. So sad to see my favorite show for the past eight years go off the air, but I wish the best for everyone on that show who made my Sunday nights more exciting. Are we all anxiously awaiting the return of Grey’s Anatomy this fall? With all the shake-ups on that show, prepare for a great season premiere in September!
Maybe you’re wondering what other shows I’ve been interested in? Not a whole lot this summer. There seems to be a drought in good shows, but I have found a few bright spots:
- TNT offers up a continuation of Dallas—a lot of fun, a lot of drama. It’s been fun to see Jesse Metcalfe, Josh Henderson and Brenda Strong from DH, Patrick Duffy (Frank from Step by Step), and the incomparable Larry Hagman (who will always be Major Nelson to me).
- ABC’s The Bachelorette, Bachelor Pad, and Big Brother-inspired The Glass House have offered a nice distraction, but by they are by no means must-see.
- ABC’s Duets was also amusing. I enjoyed seeing a newly slender Kelly Clarkson judging and performing along with Jennifer Nettles, Robin Thicke and John Legend. In case you’re wondering, a nice dude named J Rome won the contract with Hollywood Records. He’s very much in the vein of Usher.
- MTV’s The Real World: St. Thomas has also been nice to watch. The cast has just the right amount of drama to keep me tuned in without making me cringe.
- Saving the best for last, ABC Family’s Pretty Little Liars has been the big draw for me this summer. Despite the fact that the drama has been slow-moving this season, I think we’re preparing for a BIG reveal. Fans need to be patient.
I’ve ranted enough. Think I need a drink!! Hope to make an announcement soon and in the words of Journey, “Don’t Stop Believing.”
What a busy weekend, folks! Had so much fun getting ice cream with my friends on Thursday. It turned in to an all-day EVENT! Nevertheless, I spent most of Saturday trying to catch up on all our favorite shows (okay, MY favorite shows). If you like them, enjoy. If not, too bad! Ha! Ha!
Grey’s Anatomy was really interesting. [SPOILER ALERT] It was great to see the incomparable Alfre Woodard visiting Seattle Grace Mercy West Hospital. It was also nice to see Mrs. O’Malley (aka George’s mom) return to the hospital. She was so happy to see Callie because Callie was like the daughter she never had. Callie, however, was hesitant to tell her she was a lesbian now. When George’s mom did find out, she was so accepting and was so happy to see a picture of Callie’s daughter, Sophia. The mood was somber when Alex, Christina and Meredith sat down to discuss George’s mom’s hospital visit. Alex was right; seeing her reminds us that George is dead and Izzie’s gone. It was nice to see the writers acknowledging how these events shaped the lives of our residents (Kepner and Avery, although fun to watch, are no Izzie and George). Also, seeing Dr. McSteamy getting upset over Avery avoiding him was quite humorous to watch also. Great episode overall.
Next up, Private Practice brought us much excitement and set up a lot of drama for November sweeps. [SPOILER ALERT] First, Charlotte started having flashbacks to a fatal car crash she was involved in (Yes, another traumatic Charlotte incident, but I’ll buy it). Amelia left work early to get high on pills and to engage in sexual relations with her new paramour. As a result, one of her patients almost lost their eyesight and now Amelia must face serious consequences.
Now on to Fox and The X-Factor: [SPOILER ALERT] The first live show open to viewer voting was very enjoyable. Dakota Rayne looked beautiful in their multi-season themed gowns. Rachel Crow was adorable as always with her “Walking on Sunshine” cover (renamed “You’re My Sunshine). Astro’s performance was fun until that random Missy Elliott “Get Ur Freak On” verse in the middle. What was up with that? Leroy Bell’s performance was classic, but very effective. Drew’s version of “Just A Dream” by Nelly was so creative. Great reimagining of the song. That girl is just great to watch. Like Paula said, she could totally sing the chorus to a rapper’s song. Stacy Francis blew me away as usual (LOVE HER!) and Melanie Amaro’s cover of “Desperado” showcased her great voice. Now let’s stop mentioning how Melanie is just lucky to be there after getting eliminated and brought back. She’s got every right to be there now. Josh Krajcik’s version of “Jar of Hearts” gave me goosebumps. Great job! The Stereo Hogzz tried to impress with their “Rhythm Nation” cover, but other than Paula’s great choreography offered little else. Children’s group inTENsity was entertaining, but there’s just too many of them; there’s way too much going on there and it was distracting. No surprise, they were the bottom two. In the end, inTENsity was sent packing. Good luck, kids.
Who’s looking forward to Sunday night’s best dramas? My musings on Once Upon A Time, Desperate Housewives and PanAm will be up soon.
Hey, everyone. I know it defeats the purpose of having a blog if you don’t actually blog, but this week has been flying by…and what an eventful week it’s been.
Without further ado, Dancing With The Stars was certainly entertaining this week and the elimination was right down to the wire. [SPOILER ALERT] Would it be Nancy or David? In the end, we said good-bye to David and now look forward to next week.
This week, Castle had everyone shaking in their boots. WOW! [SPOILER ALERT] A bank heist and Castle right in the middle of it! Completely separate from Beckett. At least we know that if something ever happens to Kate (or God forbid, Stana Katic), Richard Castle can certainly lead the show on his own.
ABC’s new sitcoms Last Man Standing and Man Up! came on before Dancing With The Stars again this week on Tuesday. Although I enjoy Last Man Standing (and Tim Allen) more than Man Up!, Man Up! has its own charm, which I can’t describe. Ending the night on ABC, Body of Proof with Dana Delany. Did I say Dana Delany? I meant Dana Delicious! Girl was trying to get her freak on, but her annoying daughter kept interrupting. Although, we all know how much she loves her daughter, why was she always creeping around? The case itself had so many twists and turns, I think I got whiplash.
Wednesday night on ABC was also funny, funny, funny! [SPOILER ALERT] The Middle with the wireless phone mishaps and Axl actually looking and sounding sophisticated, Suburgatory with Jeremy Sisto in the shower and the drive to help the skin of Floridians, Modern Family with Cameron attempting to pick up a woman at a bar, and Happy Endings with…what exactly happened? There was the married couple trying to stay away from each other, the lunch truck commercial and I’m pretty sure Penny and Alex swapped boyfriends (I’m not even going to attempt to figure out what was happening).
My favorite part of Wednesday night: REVENGE! Revenge delivered as usual. Emily Van Camp shined and [SPOILER ALERT] Daniel’s hustling roommate made my jaw drop. The anniversary dinner with Victoria (Madeleine Stowe) was sooooo juicy with all the underlying tensions. Bye, bye, creepy security guard in love with Victoria…and welcome back, Lydia!
Over on Fox, I’ll cover The X-Factor USA when I get a chance to watch it on demand.
In case you were wondering, yes, I saw the Lindsay Lohan hearing today (even though it was brief). Judge sent her to jail, more community service and therapy. Again, I’m rooting for her so let’s hope she does what she’s supposed to do.
Also, Kris Jenner was on The View talking about her new book, Kris Jenner and All Things Kardashian. Naturally, she spilled about Kim’s recent divorce announcement and said she prayed for her daughter.
And what about the Biebs? Justin Bieber fathering a child? I think he needs to come clean and a statement from his team is not cutting it. He should be out there denying it if there’s nothing to hide or admit if he had a liaison with Mariah Yeater. And why has Selena remained mum? There’s something we don’t know.
Also, GOP contender Herman Cain is in more hot water over sexual harrassment allegations. I’m confident he’ll weather this storm. Here’s wishing you the best, Herman.
I’ve got lots to do tomorrow. I’m marching into the labor office to figure out why I haven’t heard anything about my employment status yet and I’ve got multiple errands to run before meeting some friends for an ice cream date. Have a great one! Thanks for stopping by.